So i thought i

31.8.17 So I thought I should listen to some music. So I heard 'Lonesome Cowboy' by Elvis. It evokes this image of a wild west cowboy man who does good deeds on his own, travelling afar in search of cowboyness. I don't think it's done ironically, but I hear all sorts of man-man ideas of isolation and independence. I don't know what Elvis was really going for here, but the thick waves of romantic manliness suggest he is trying to, sincerely, create the cowboy-man ideal he sings about. I also don't see Elvis as a particularly manly type. I'm sure he intended to be, but he wore colourful clothes and does singing. Men aren't supposed to do either of those things- singing is a pretty thing (and 'pretty' is a word most men can't pronounce properly 'cos we say it so rarely) and colourful clothes are pretty as well. So I thought I should put Elvis in the soundtrack 'cos he somehow messes up in the man-man picture. But not like the art

So someone told me I should write here. So here I am I'm interested in masculinity and its eroticism. Men do lots of stuff together which is very sexual, but pretending it isn't. I see this everywhere. Men go to the gym together, ostensibly to work themselves up for girls, but they spend much more time staring at each others muscles than staring into the eyes of some woman they fancy. I'm talking about heterosexual men. Heterosexual men who are blind to the mystery of sexuality. Heterosexual men who don't consider the amount of sex in everything they do. Heterosexual men who don't see how much time they spend with other heterosexual men. Men ride their bikes together. In clothes that make everything bulge. And I mean everything Men meet for coffee. To talk manly stuff. In their shiny suits Men watch football together. Watching other men run around with other men and kick balls around So I thought I should work this out. Heterosexual men spend their time wi